Someone , please save me from all the pain . No one can cure it , no one can fix my broken heart . No one understand how i'm feeling right now . No one can and no one will .
(I wish you're here to read the post and know how i feel . But , i've never crossed your mind , atleast for now , i'll not anymore .)
So , i gave school a miss today cause my eyes are basically swelled and i'm having difficulties in breathing due to something . There's no more secondth , there's no more third for my birthday , basically , no more .
Guess i'm not gonna enjoy my birthday for this year too . Thanks to all the shedding of tears that basically won't help with anything , i made myself sick . Went to the doctors , five different medicine , have to consume 9 tablets . I'm not one who knows to eat tablets . Three times a day , which means 27 tablets a day . If you think it's real cool , try it yourself .
Have been thinking of all sort of nonsense for the whole day , until now , i've not done anything . Slept from 2 plus till 7 plus . Sleeping stops me from thinking about someone . Guess that helps , the only cure .
So what if i remember every single thing you said to me ? So what if i remember every single place we've been to ? So what if you're the first one i made cookies for , the first one i really cared so much for , the first one i spent hours to do a birthday card for , the first one i've watched movie alone with a boy before , the first one i'm willing to take care of , the first person i'll feel sorry for everytime although i did nothing wrong , the first one i've been willing to act so dumb just cause i want you to notice me , the first one i tried my hardest to make things better . So what if the things you do with / for me is your first time for someone too ? So what if i still love you ? So what if it's the first time i had such strong feelings for someone . Escpecially for 6 months plus . So what ? So what is still so what . So what can't change the fact of anything . I guess i'm not meant to have long lasting relationships . Neither am i worth someone to love for a long period of time .
They say people who are single don't have to worry about anything , and are usually the happy ones . But the second i've turned single , i'm not happy at all . Everytime i smile at the messages that you sent me , but once i saw that message , i totally wanted to end my life . I didn't know what to do , what to reply . All i could do was just cry my heart out . You can see the tears falling from my eyes , the moment i saw the message . What else can i do ? I didn't go to school , because i don't want to face you . I was hoping you'd realise that , but i doubt you did . -Sigh- . Goodbye really came as a shock . Annyonghikaseyo boy . Kaseyo's besically cause i'm staying while you're leaaving >:( .
I'm sorry for ranting here . I'm not trying to make anyone pity me if you think it's so . I just need to rant . More ranting @ my tumblr later . You can go take a look if you want to . Or else , yeah .
I've got no mood for the SHINee oppas tomorrow . You tell me how ?! Ottoke >:( ?
I wished you know how much i regretted removing the status in facebook . Cause you didn't bother to remove it at all . I wished it could stay there for a longer time . Sigh .
Guess i'm not gonna enjoy my birthday for this year too . Thanks to all the shedding of tears that basically won't help with anything , i made myself sick . Went to the doctors , five different medicine , have to consume 9 tablets . I'm not one who knows to eat tablets . Three times a day , which means 27 tablets a day . If you think it's real cool , try it yourself .
Have been thinking of all sort of nonsense for the whole day , until now , i've not done anything . Slept from 2 plus till 7 plus . Sleeping stops me from thinking about someone . Guess that helps , the only cure .
So what if i remember every single thing you said to me ? So what if i remember every single place we've been to ? So what if you're the first one i made cookies for , the first one i really cared so much for , the first one i spent hours to do a birthday card for , the first one i've watched movie alone with a boy before , the first one i'm willing to take care of , the first person i'll feel sorry for everytime although i did nothing wrong , the first one i've been willing to act so dumb just cause i want you to notice me , the first one i tried my hardest to make things better . So what if the things you do with / for me is your first time for someone too ? So what if i still love you ? So what if it's the first time i had such strong feelings for someone . Escpecially for 6 months plus . So what ? So what is still so what . So what can't change the fact of anything . I guess i'm not meant to have long lasting relationships . Neither am i worth someone to love for a long period of time .
They say people who are single don't have to worry about anything , and are usually the happy ones . But the second i've turned single , i'm not happy at all . Everytime i smile at the messages that you sent me , but once i saw that message , i totally wanted to end my life . I didn't know what to do , what to reply . All i could do was just cry my heart out . You can see the tears falling from my eyes , the moment i saw the message . What else can i do ? I didn't go to school , because i don't want to face you . I was hoping you'd realise that , but i doubt you did . -Sigh- . Goodbye really came as a shock . Annyonghikaseyo boy . Kaseyo's besically cause i'm staying while you're leaaving >:( .
I'm sorry for ranting here . I'm not trying to make anyone pity me if you think it's so . I just need to rant . More ranting @ my tumblr later . You can go take a look if you want to . Or else , yeah .
I've got no mood for the SHINee oppas tomorrow . You tell me how ?! Ottoke >:( ?
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