When you are going , i count the steps that you take , do you see how much I need you right now .
Expect the unexpected , the Jovina everyone once know might be gone , for long , for good . Paper bags and Plastic hearts , are all belongings of Jovina's heart .
Mind me , this post might be alittle too unlady like .
Firstly , i'm sorry Adeline !
Firstly , i'm sorry Adeline !
Secondly , Happy Belated Birthday Trixy !
So , when I wanted to go to pack my stuffs last night , I was like totally don’t know what the hell I was doing . Went to turn off the plug for my lappie , then “BAM” , fuck , I hit my damn head on the cabinet ontop . Shyt , first time aye . Stupid meeeee :( . I went to sleep afterthat , I forgotten to pack my stuffs , omg . Cried all the way . Partly because my head hurts like nobody business and I’m really very sad . Ohmygod , what happen to the old jovina .
Woke up at 530 today , chiong all the way , left house at 610 , waited the bus for 15 mins . Finally it came . If I know I should have spent my own sweet time at home preparing . Reached tam , lateeeeeeeee -.- . I cried on the bus , ohmygod ,not again :( . Quickly went to meet Mao , then went to takeaway breakfast from Macs . Sausage Mcgriddles with egg :D . Ate on the bus , took bus 10 over to Kallang . Crapped a lot on the bus , lolol . Damn funny laaaaaaaaaa . We at there crap like idk what . Then we say Yahui live here and there . Hah , they made me happy :) . Reached kallang late , luckily coach haven’t reach . Wait , no , she’s always late ! Hah , started with shooting and stuffs , I never do at all la -.- . I only at there play a fool , venting my anger on netball . Though I was damn tired after running here and there , I still continue , I must vent my anger no matter what , After shooting , we played attacking and defending , then coach came , All got punished , zzzz , Stupid aye , but , never mind , atleast I don’t have to do more shooting ! Punished to do 50 pushups and stand at the fence there , which has a lot of ants , until 9 . Hah , we all at there talk lo -.- .
Traintraintrain , Coach put me with the seniors . Hehhhh , not bad aye . Play with them harder , andandand , not easily distracted , so I like it ! And , I’m sorry adeline :( . My nails cut until you , I’m soooo sorry , and I’m still guilty for doing that . Careless Jovina , can even forget to cut your damn nails . Roooooar . And , riverside sec. cheated our feelings ! They all didn’t turn up . Wthhhhhh , make all of us wake up so damn early for the sake of them . Dumb .
So , the whole time was training , but train at kallang cool eh . Very windy and sun not so hot , and no need move any pole . Andand , have toilet for us to bath . Released at somewhere near 12 . Went to change into my fbt instead , tie hair again , take down fringe . I’m a guai kia again , clip up fringe aye ! So proud of myself , lol . Siao me . Went to Kfc for lunch with Mao and Jinjin , laughmyassoff , both of them seriously made my day . Had so much laughter there . And , thanks jinjin for lending me your Ipod on the way home . We spent about an hour in Kfc , crapping . Took bus home , at first we took 31 , then behind have 10 , so we alighted to take it , hah ! Funny aye , we all at there laughlaughlaugh all the way . I fell asleep on the bus . Reached tamp , took bus home . Bathed , and stuffs . Headed to Hospital , raining , I walked in the rain , my favourite already laaaaaa . I LOVE THE RAIN . I felt so emo on the way to the hospital :( . I keep thinking of stuffs , flashbacks , ohmy :( . Went to hopsital , ate Tom Yam Noodles for Dinner , i did it on purpose . Making myself sufer from the spiciness . & I drank bloody alot of water . I know i'm dumb to be trying to find ways to hurt myself .
Woke up at 530 today , chiong all the way , left house at 610 , waited the bus for 15 mins . Finally it came . If I know I should have spent my own sweet time at home preparing . Reached tam , lateeeeeeeee -.- . I cried on the bus , ohmygod ,not again :( . Quickly went to meet Mao , then went to takeaway breakfast from Macs . Sausage Mcgriddles with egg :D . Ate on the bus , took bus 10 over to Kallang . Crapped a lot on the bus , lolol . Damn funny laaaaaaaaaa . We at there crap like idk what . Then we say Yahui live here and there . Hah , they made me happy :) . Reached kallang late , luckily coach haven’t reach . Wait , no , she’s always late ! Hah , started with shooting and stuffs , I never do at all la -.- . I only at there play a fool , venting my anger on netball . Though I was damn tired after running here and there , I still continue , I must vent my anger no matter what , After shooting , we played attacking and defending , then coach came , All got punished , zzzz , Stupid aye , but , never mind , atleast I don’t have to do more shooting ! Punished to do 50 pushups and stand at the fence there , which has a lot of ants , until 9 . Hah , we all at there talk lo -.- .
Traintraintrain , Coach put me with the seniors . Hehhhh , not bad aye . Play with them harder , andandand , not easily distracted , so I like it ! And , I’m sorry adeline :( . My nails cut until you , I’m soooo sorry , and I’m still guilty for doing that . Careless Jovina , can even forget to cut your damn nails . Roooooar . And , riverside sec. cheated our feelings ! They all didn’t turn up . Wthhhhhh , make all of us wake up so damn early for the sake of them . Dumb .
So , the whole time was training , but train at kallang cool eh . Very windy and sun not so hot , and no need move any pole . Andand , have toilet for us to bath . Released at somewhere near 12 . Went to change into my fbt instead , tie hair again , take down fringe . I’m a guai kia again , clip up fringe aye ! So proud of myself , lol . Siao me . Went to Kfc for lunch with Mao and Jinjin , laughmyassoff , both of them seriously made my day . Had so much laughter there . And , thanks jinjin for lending me your Ipod on the way home . We spent about an hour in Kfc , crapping . Took bus home , at first we took 31 , then behind have 10 , so we alighted to take it , hah ! Funny aye , we all at there laughlaughlaugh all the way . I fell asleep on the bus . Reached tamp , took bus home . Bathed , and stuffs . Headed to Hospital , raining , I walked in the rain , my favourite already laaaaaa . I LOVE THE RAIN . I felt so emo on the way to the hospital :( . I keep thinking of stuffs , flashbacks , ohmy :( . Went to hopsital , ate Tom Yam Noodles for Dinner , i did it on purpose . Making myself sufer from the spiciness . & I drank bloody alot of water . I know i'm dumb to be trying to find ways to hurt myself .
I'm tired of everything , I need to rest . I want to rest , without tears , without thinking of the past , I want to face reality , but i know i can't . So , just forget it , let i be , i'll make it through , one day . I know , it's stupid to cry over boys , i know it's not worth it , i know it's jut a waste of my tears , but still , i can't control my tears . I shouldn't ask people to cheerup anymore , cause i'm one , who can't cheerup as well . Forget it .
Maybe , i'm useless as well . (Photos with Mao , i'll get it from her tomorrow.)
Although I missed the shooting star at 0830 today , but still i wished , for something .
The photo above is When You're Gone - Avril Lavigne . Was listening to it the whole time . Meaningful . Sorry for the blur picture as well .
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